it will be ok

Is anyone ever truly mine? No I think not!! We pretend. we wish. we want, but no!! Everybody is their own person.

Lying here listening to those stupid frogs outside going tok tok tok tok tok tok. Normally I can deal with it but not tonight. thinking about the relationship I just finished. he disrespected me right from the start and I was too blind or what I don’t know to allow him to do that to […]

I have finished a relationship with a person. He was lazy and rude and cranky. He was a sloth. Well with me anyway. He sat and watched screens all day everyday from when he got out of bed in the mornings to when he went to bed at night. I was not enough for him […]

Right now my soul feels like it’s in a cell with windows and doors and I can’t get out I can see out but I can’t get out. My soul feels like it’s suffocating. I hate it.I want to go back to when I was free when I didn’t have to worry aboutA man taking […]

Pain that won’t go away is terrible.

This is so frustrating. I hurt my back two days ago. But of course I can’t do anything It’s only a couple days This is when I get behind in the upkeep of the garden. And then the blackness sets in. Because I will never catch up……. And this is where cognitive thinking comes in….. […]

Discipline is a hard thing to master especially self discipline. For some people it comes easier. For me it’s not so easy. Once I could do it then became apathetic and kept asking myself the question “what is the point”. What is the point of going to work, having a house, being in a relationship? […]

Something I wrote on the 17 September 2017 What will I look like when I’m 60,70,or after.I am curious …….looking at elders and watching, wondering…I am finding that ageing is an interesting process. The fine lines and loose skin. Bits of extra padding. Grey hair.It is not scary any more.I am finding that it takes […]

I am learning to let my girl go. Learning to give her more responsibility. Both mentally and socially. We have to find the balance. It’s frustrating. It is scary For us both It is thinking I am not needed anymore. It is wanting to protect her from the bad in the world that is awaiting […]